Belated Fall Photos and the Ramblings of an Exhausted Mom


Being a mom is something I am deeply passionate about. I think I’m pretty good at it and it shows in my children’s character every day. I know I’m blessed, truly I do. I don’t usually share my struggles because to be honest I don’t really have many and those that I do aren’t big enough in my eyes to complain about or hold on to for long.

I wanted, however, to get real today and share a bit of why I’ve been quiet on here (and Instagram) so much. Being a mom again for a toddler is not without its challenges. Not long ago, my two older girls were independent, our house was managed, and things ran pretty well. Adding Isla has definitely changed things. I won’t say in a negative way because despite the new added craziness Isla makes me consider having one more (does that make me crazy? Probably). 

Today I’m behind in everything. My clean house is becoming harder to keep clean and if you knew me well, you'd know this drives me nuts. My laundry is so full some days I literally have to climb on top of it to get into the room. My bedroom has become a catch all, my closet too. Most days I’m in pajamas hiding from the outside world because I haven’t had time to wash my hair or let’s face it, even take a shower.

This year, I’ve finally taken the plunge and started homeschooling Piper. I've wanted to do this for so long! Not because Piper has problems at school or anything but because I love being around my kids. Let me tell you, it’s been a real learning curve. I love it but I still feel like I'm going at this blind. I'll report back at the end of the school year to let you know if we will continue it. And in the mix Piper’s been working through some frustrating (rebelling) middle child issues. I won't share more on here because I don't want to embarrass her but I feel at a loss right know. I know God will see us through this, I just have to be patient. I also find comfort in knowing Chloie went through a phase like this when Piper was Isla's age.

My adorable Isla is growing into a strong-willed child. Oh, how I love her fierce determination but it never gives us rest. This busy little bee never sits still unless she needs some cuddles. She's a climber and challenges her skills daily. We are presently going through a sleep regression like none other. She refuses nap time most days and will only sleep in her room 2-3 hours (if I'm lucky) before she wakes up crying to be in ours. Even as I type this at 12:30am, I am sitting in her room quietly waiting for her to fall asleep. Her quiet sniffles just melt my heart. I know this beautiful time; this age is fleeting. I try hard to remind myself of it daily. I never want to take it for granite.

And can we take a minute to say how adorable Isla looks on this rock?! She climbed up there and happily sat still for me while I clicked away. She posed for about 30 minutes or at least it felt like that. Seriously I considered dragging that rock home with me. And in the photos where she is grabbing her stomach she was saying, "Tickoo Tickoo!" Her way of saying tickle.

I stepped away from here and my Instagram (unintentionally at first) for traveling and to work on home projects (like literally remodeling our entire basement) as well as giving my family more of my time. It’s refreshing to step away. Giving up that nagging need to check in or post is liberating but I do miss tinkering with photos and seeing what’s going on. 

So, while I’m late with your replies and I’ve given so many excuses, the truth is, I’m still trying to catch my breath. In my head I’m totally convinced, I’m almost caught up. Tomorrow I can find a moment. Tomorrow I’ll be able to get ahead (and maybe I will) but most days I don’t and when I do, I usually choose to clean a corner of my home or am too tired to do anything more than Netflix. And while I share these completely trivial struggles, I don't want to come off as if I'm complaining. I'm just updating you, the reader, with my whys. I keep an optimistic outlook. I try to make time for those who've befriend me and keep our little adventures going. I wouldn’t change my little corner of chaos for anything in the world. Anyhoo, thanks for listening to the rambles of an over sharing exhausted mom, at now 3:41 in the morning... 

P.S. These photos are from September. I have photos as far back as July that I'd love to share. So, if time allows, I might try to wiggle them in here and there when I find a quiet moment.

Take Care & Enjoy,


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